My gloomiest painting - clown

Happy Halloween! Here is my gloomiest painting - the clown

I have some art that I call "dead artwork". Those are paintings that I have destroyed in some way. Usually they are paintings that I have painted over. Sometimes there is something completely new on top of the previous painting and sometimes the old painting resembles the new one. Here is an example of my "dead artwork" that became something new.

So the first painting is a drowning face. I actually got the idea in 2004 when I was floating in a swimming pool alone. There had just been the horrible tsunami in 2004 and I was thinking of the events. So I ended up painting this floating face...(oh and I used myself as a "model" for it).

I photographed the painting but always felt that it was lacking something. Sometime in 2006 I ended up painting the clown over it. All the layers of paint underneath the clown just adds up nice texture to the painting and the clown became a quite scary painting. It is until today my gloomiest painting. It's in fact one of my own favorit paintings... but for some reason it's not hanging on my wall... I guess it's too depressing :/
I need a bigger apartment so that I could hang it somewhere in a corner. 

Oh, and I'll post  more "dead artwork" sometime in the future ;) there is more and most of them are dead for a reason ;)

oh, and talking about Halloween...here are some nice vintage Halloween costumes: link

Self portrait

Here is a self portrait I did.  I use myself a lot as a model in my paintings, but it's mainly anatomy reference, reference for light and shadow and perspective. Eventually the painting turns out whatever it turns out. There are some paintings that turn out a lot prettier than me link and other hardly look human anymore link. Aren't all paintings eventually reflections of oneself?

I wanted to make this portrait realistic by painting my moles and mismatch boobs. As a Photoshop loving shallow person I didn't like to paint my flaws, but sometimes you just have to be honest with yourself. 

Self portrait (40cm x 50cm acrylic paint on canvas, year created: 2012)

estimated real size detail